Just an update.

One of my absolute favorite Oasis songs. Strangely though, I cannot put the music video in this blog post, so this lyric video with stars and stuff should make it up... Or not.

Also, this song is dedicated to Kelvin, Kit Yin and many other friends in ADP who are leaving Malaysia to further their studies in America. Good luck people; I sincerely wish all of you good luck and may our paths cross again, no matter how slim the chance it might be (:

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Time flies.

Time can never slow down for a guy like me. I could never grasp time with my bare hands; I am not a deity, I am just a mere human in this world, still trying to find a place to plant my feet on. No matter how sticky or daunting the road may be, I ventured most of it safely without turning back to take a look at the past. The past is the past; it is like vying for another gold medal at this year's Olympics for Malaysia.

I am dying. Dying because the future is too near. This is the first time I am afraid of putting the next step forward. The rocks on the river that leads to the other side is shaky. The water's tide is unstable. The trees behind me are shaking. The birds are chirping. The bag is getting heavier. My legs are getting tired. I am getting restless.

I cannot see the light.

As confident as I may be, I am much better off making decisions that benefit my own self. Then again, the decisions I have made for these past few years have been nothing short of benefiting only myself. Just for once, for once, I wish I could make a decision that satisfies everyone that I care for.

You can see where I am getting at now, readers. There is no way, no way that I could make a decision about my future that could console the people I care for. There will always be this one or two little sacrifices that I have to make in order to see the future.

Alas, the future is near. It is 6th August 2012 now, exactly nine days from being inducted to ADP. The rocks I am standing on is still shaky. One step back will cost me two years of my life (starting from freshman in America). Staying on the same rock will cost me my experience (staying here in Malaysia). One step forward will make me start all over again (transfer to Vancouver Film School, which alienates me from everyone I know, causing me to start afresh in a foreign place).

My mind is stuck on going for the latter. It has been a long time since I made a decision that makes everyone happy, but this is not the time to make it just yet. Not now. I am my own man. No more hesitation.

I am but an inch from putting my foot forward.

Somehow, I am still alive.


P.S: Got myself the box set of A Song Of Ice And Fire. I still got Emily Dickinson and Miss Bernice's memoir to read, so I guess my post-final term examination plans are half sorted out.

P.P.S: Stop it. Stop this sorcery you put on me!