blues

Good blues for a good day.

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Confused.

My greatest will has been broken by words and actions of others, and now, I am left here, conflicted with many thoughts in my mind and none that would help to solve the solution.

Oh, midnight woes. It seemed inevitable that I am back into the realm of afterthoughts, of dreams and fantasies made of candy flavored desires. I can already see myself diving into this deep hole I call uncertainty, and test the waters that lay ahead. Terrible, terrible me. I hate myself, but I have to, I need to, find the truth for myself, for the chest that I left behind is an empty one.

Morality itself is fading, and the line that separates it is losing its power, making emotions and senses being manipulated, being fed by the very evil that I am trying to avoid all this while.

Please. Please. No more.

No more.

Save me. Save myself. Save me myself.